re-writes

once upon and evening show
i fell for you; you're beautiful you know
i bet he thinks so too.
well i thought i'd be okay
but this shield wears thinner every day
and now you're gone

well i never meant to want you this way

stood in these wings
1000 times
dizzy for you
you were never mine
but i wanted you some how
i just wanted this somehow

do you see how you're adored by everyone
who comes into your life
it's a gift
5'10 and picturesque
not to mention, your performance is the best
who could expect me to resist?

well no one ever asked him to hold back

i've been right here
1000 times
suppressed for you
you were never mine
but i wanted you somehow
i just wanted this somehow

make the effort

love ME the most!

i don't know what else to give to you.

sixteen

are you depressed?

no, i think i'm just 16.

don't go

i don't know what's scarier
knowing i'm losing you and hating it with all my guts
or
knowing i'm losing you
and not even really caring
anymore.

i don't know how to get you back

grow meet love hurt cry leave wander think want realize lose.

the older i get, the more people i meet (speak to, bond with, love)
the more people i love, the more i can hurt (hate, mope, cry)
the more i cry, the more i have to leave (move, run, wander)
the more i wander, the more i think (hope, contemplate, want)
the more i want, the more i realize
that nothing ever turns out the way you want it
sometimes it's better (making best friends)
sometimes it's just different (being gay)
but mostly it's worse.
or non-existant.

the older i get, the more i want
and the more i find
i am losing.

so bitter

i know it's old news, but...

i hate being alone.

1000 Times

once upon and evening show
i watched you move; you're beautiful
you know
i thought i was OK,
but now i see
i'm sicker every day
and now you're gone

well, i remember loving her this way

i've been right here
1000 times
waiting for you
you were never mine
i just wanted you somehow
i just wanted this somehow
of course, it's dumb.

do you see how you're adored
by everyone
who comes into your life?
5'10 and picturesque
not to mention, your performance is the best
who could expect me to resist?

i couldn't before, and i'm not doing too well now

i've been right here
1000 times
waiting for you
you were never mine
i just wanted you somehow
i just wanted this somehow
of course, it's dumb.

will you remember me?
when you lie breathless in his arms?
will you remember me?
when you're successful
and happy
and perfect where you are?
can you remember
to save a last goodbye
for me
i will remember
i will remember all of you.