Swing Swing

Yeah, yeah, I get it.
Yeah, I know I have to deal with it.
It's just frustrating when you suddenly back out of things.
Or take them out on me.


Time to be the strong one, here.

Lifetime

new
small, no memories
fresh and soft with light filled life
there in someone's arms

three
still quite new to life
grappling for position now
discovering worlds

five
has learnt to say no
it's fun; ten steps ahead now
and look, there are boys

eight
shy and calm, smiley
friends make confidence abound
time with head in books

ten
yeah, awkward as hell
cute in some ways; it's nice to
be sorta in love

twelve
so, all legs and arms
she wonders where the world's gone
struggles with love; lost

fifteen
a learned grace inside
friends become family; art's love
nice to be growing

future
its uncertain but
it's looking to be one hell
of an awesome ride

Desires

hands on me here, there
everywhere; solid and soft
warm, smooth, breath, touch, sigh

heart on you here, there
everywhere; warm and throbbing
love, life, hold, yours, mine

Defective

Pretty
Funny
Smart
Talented
Sexy
Sweet
Trustworthy
Fun
Or so I've been told.

So either everyone's lying, or there's just something huge I'm missing here.

Desperation

Don't treat me like we're playing a game, cause maybe I don't want to lose maybe I don't want to risk it all for you.

I think it's bad that I'm so desperate I'm willing to take anyone who will take me. Even if it sacrifices them in the long run.

Blank Spot

What's missing? Where does it go? Was it ever there? Did it leave? Did it ever exist to begin with? How do I get it back? How do I find out what it is? Why do I need it? Why is it gone in the first place? What is this ache I feel? Why can't I enjoy what I have?
What's missing? Is it a where? A how? A why? A when? A what? A who?
Who's missing? Why are they missing? What do I need them for anyway? What's my problem? Why can't I be grateful? How am I supposed to move on with this empty spot taking over me?

Why does it hurt so bad to be missing something?

Arrogance And Confidence

it is a wonder
to be young and beautiful
and know it full well

it is a wonder
to be pretty and stared at
and know it full well

it is a wonder
to be wanted by others
and know it full well

but it is divine
to have gifts that are lovely
and know if full well